Life is getting fcuked up by the day. I feel like I'm being abandoned. Never in my life had I felt this lonely. Maybe this will do me good, make me more independent . Stop relying on your friends or family. Keep your head down and keep moving. Ignore the people who wear masks to hide their real faces. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe I'm just anti-social. People say the bigger the headphones you have, the more anti-social you are. Well, mine are pretty big. But the people I used to rely on have just disappeared. Went into hiding. I see people moving on. I see people making new friiends. I see new faces everywhere, but i'm just staying at my one spot, oblivious to the happenings around me. Oblivious to the passing of time. Oblivious to the world. I used to rely on you, talk to you when I have problems, and you talk to me when you have problems. But that misunderstanding has severed the ties of our friendship. I don't know about you, but I'm still here, bound by the feeling of helplessness and loneliness. And to that dudette, we loved each other at one point in time, but after a while, it was all gone. You used to message me often, and I would message you often, but what happened? Now you ignore me. When I message you, all I get is one word answers. You say that you are fine, but I only see a shadow of who you once were. Maybe it's just me, maybe I'm way too sensitive. I don't know. People say when you face hardships, it is God testing you. If it really is God testing me, please just help me overcome this phase of my life. Give me strength. Strength to make it through. EOYs are coming. Overcoming this problem before friday is impossible. Let's just pray and hope that a miracle happens that will turn my life around. *sighs*

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Today, hmm, okok laa. Woke up at 4.30 to eat cereals (yumm!) then go back to sleep. Woke up again at 10.30. So then played COD 4 and PES 2009 until 11.15. Bathed, and then changed. Took 15 to Pasir Ris. Met Hadi, Suhair and Sofea there. Found out we watching movie at Tamp. (Grrr, waste my money only). So then we walked around, tried to chill at the sky garden, but it was waaay to hot. Then went to Century Square to go buy tickets, and met Hanis and Yaya (I think. Sorie). Went back to sky garden to play DM and DD (DaiDi). Then, we headed to the cinema. G-Force is boring cos I slept at the last part. Then went home, ate Mee Soto for the 5th time this month, but still yumm!.

To that Dudette, I hope she knows who she is.
I understand the reason why you didn't accept me back then, and it's ok.
I understood then and I still understand now.
I know how you felt and I didn't want to pressure you, knowing you have all the other problems to solve.
I wanted to give you time to think.
And I'm still here.
Knowing.
Caring.
Understanding.
I remembered how you reacted to all that I did for you.
That ice-cream during camp was to let you know that I'm always there for all your needs.
I offered to carry your bag to let you know that I will be there to ease your burden.
I also remembered how you reacted when you found out that it was me who wrote that message.
That Valentine's Day, when I asked you out, and you said you were busy, I said it's okay, cos I don't want you to leave what you had to do just for me.
I always know how you are feeling, and those "Are you okay?" messages were to let you know that I'm always there for you to talk to, a friend, a counsellor, an adviser.
It makes a difference, knowing that you are okay, even though you don't look okay.
I apologise for every single time i snapped at you, cos of that stupid misunderstanding.
Thats what happens when you act without listening to the other side of the story.

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The past few days have been very boring.

My ca2 scores very not satisfying.

Must work harder!

Yesterday, went to buke puasa with friends. It was great. Me and Riny met first, then Suhair, Hanis and Sofea arrived. After that was Ezra. We walked around, looking for a place to eat, and decided on KFC. We sat down at around 6pm and we talked about random stuff, wiped the oil off our noses, kicked other people, and had the time of our lives (sarcastic, ok).

Finally, we decided to buy food at 7pm. Me, Suhair, Hanis and Sofea shared a family feast meal, I think, Two chickens, cheese fries and whipped potato was what I ate. Full to the core mann.

After that, the girls wanna go toilet, and we walked all the way to Tampines 1 toilet cos it was “nice, big and shiny”. While they were in the toilet, I bought a chocolate snowshake. Btw, snowshakes and chickens are not a good match. stomachache.

We then went to the sky garden. Play taiti. Cleaning auntie scolded us cos we brought food up. Haha. Then the others joined. Security guard come, tell us got bigger sky garden upstairs.

Quickly go up. Like twice the size of the one below ah. Play taiti, DM, and juz talked. 9pm, all of us went home. Ezra kicked Sheikh’s shin. Sheikh damn funny ah. Reach home, sleep.

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Wow, it had been 3ooo years since I last updated my blog. Well, as some of you know, I am quarantine. Sad sia. The school asked me to be quarantined one day before my soccer nationals starts, so yeah, damn pissed sia. When I reached home, I went straight to my room. As I thought about it, I realised that there was some good in me being quarantined.~



Day 1:
-Used computer
-Played PS2
-Watched TV
-Carried weights
-Goalkeeper training


-Day 2:
-Used computer
-Played PS2
-Watched TV
-Carried weights
-Goalkeeper training


Day 3:
-Used computer
-Played PS2 & PS3
-Watched TV
-Carried weights
-Goalkeeper training


Day 4:
-Used computer
-Played PS2 & PS3 & PSP
-Watched TV
-Carried weights
-Goalkeeper training


Day 5:
-Used more computer
-Played PS2 & PS3 & PSP
-Watched TV
-Carried weights
-Goalkeeper training



It's not as fun as it seems okay. By the third day, you would have wanted to go back to school. Soo excited that I will be back on tomorrow! Bye !

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Well, I just came back from Malaysia last night. Didn't sleep there as planned. Intended to go training, but woke up at 11 am. So, as usual, I checked my class blog and found out that there was a class outing today. Well, bathed and got dressed, then went to meet my classmates. When I arrived at the meeting place, only 4 people including me were there. Me, Ezra, Shawn And Nadhirah, the only girl. So, we went to TM and saw that the queue at GV was SSUUPPEERR LOOOOOOOONG! So, we went to Century. There was no queue because there wasn't any movies showing. We decided to eat first, and then buy the tix. So, went to Pastamania and we all shared money to buy a 16" pizza and some drinks. Ezra and Shawn were busy playing their PSPs and were eating SSSUUUPPPEEERRR slowly. Good thing though as we had two whole hours before the movie started. Then went walking around... Super boring man. Btw, Nad was complaining the whole time about being the only girl and Ezra kept taunting her bout her height. Then we went to buy popcorns while waiting to enter. Finally, we went in and sat down. So, Nad wanted to sit at the side and a few minutes later, an old guy came in and sat beside her. THe movie was okay and we enjoyed it. At the end, while we were walking out, we kept taunting her bout the chikopek who sat beside her. We walked to TM and we went our seperate ways. I went to Coffee Bean and ate a Bramley Apple and Raisin Crumble cake. Tasted weird. So, went home and wrote this post. A lot of people complained that my blog was empty...

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Hey guys! How have you guys been? Nadhirah and Nurdin are organising a class outing after our MYE. We are planning to watch a movie which YOU guys will choose. The movies are Night At The Museum 2, Ice Age 3, The Uninvited or Fighting. Just go to http://wakalawale.blogspot.com/-------> (Nurdin's blog) to vote. The date and time will be confirmed by Nadhirah soon. Have fun in the meantime. :D

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